Busy Weekend...

This weekend will be busy. At least I should have an opportunity to take some interesting photos.

Tonight Kylie tests for her red belt in tae kwon do. She told me she's nervous because her instructor will not be there. I told her it's normal to feel nervous. I know she'll do a good job.

Tomorrow the girls have a birthday party to attend at 1. It's supposed to be until 4, but we have a wedding at 2:30 so we'll only be at the party for an hour. It's for a girl in Sophie's class turning 4. They're having a moon bounce, a Kona Ice (shaved ice) truck and pizza. Wow, I wonder what all that is costing?

And Sunday we're supposed to visit my father. Hospice is now involved and he's on morphine bills, up to 4 a day. Hospice only gets involved when the patient has less than 6 months to live. Last night I had trouble sleeping yet again. I kept thinking of my dad and I'm trying so hard to be positive but then when he has a setback it makes it that much harder to deal with it. A part of me had been holding out hope that he could beat this. If anyone could beat cancer it would be my dad. But now I'm realizing that he won't beat this, it's spread to his bones, his time here is getting shorter. Will he be alive at Christmas?

I'm sorry this blog has turned into a pity party. I need to put on a happy face, at least for the girls. And I do manage to do this in front of them. But late at night, when everyone's sleeping and my mind is racing, I crumble.