My dad is dying. Last Wednesday (could that really be only 2 days ago?) he called from Houston with the news. The cancer has spread to his liver and lymph nodes and there is fluid around one of this lungs. His cancer is now Stage IV. The doctor only gave him maximum of eight months.
When I got the news Wednesday evening I was at tae kwon do with Steve and the girls. They wanted to go out to eat at O'Charley's afterwards with Lili and her parents. I'm sitting at O'Charley's listening to their idle chitchat and trying to process the devastating news. I was so good. I didn't cry, in fact if you had run into me at the restaurant you wouldn't have known anything was wrong. I even went to work the next day and did pretty good until around noon, when I started bawling at my desk. I left early, went home and tried to sleep a few hours before picking up the girls at school.
Today we visitied my dad and stepmom. It was so surreal, to look at him you'd never know that he has less than a year to live. Look at the photo...that was taken today when he took Kylie and Sophie for rides on his quad. I keep waiting for someone to tell me this was all a joke or a bad dream, it just doesn't compute.
One of the hardest thing for me is to be strong for my daughters. All I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry, but I can't because I have to put on a happy face for them. Today I watched them laughing and joking with Papa Paul and I thought about how he won't be there to see them as teenagers, or see them graduate, or even see Sophie turn 5.
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I am soooooooooooooo sorry to hear this. He has fought so hard in this battle against the cancer. I am soooooooooooo sorry to hear this news. He does look great in the pic. I will pray for strength and comfort for you and your family and also that he will be in as little pain as possible. ((((((hugs)))))))
On a trivial note, you are right that the dress Nadia was wearing at her bday party was from Gap. It was a baby gift from a year ago.
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